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Freaking living next to a strip of grass that the raccoons have ordained their territory sucks! I have now been assaulted by their noises 3 times and let me tell you it's pretty disturbing. Case in point, let me tell you a little story about last night,
So I'm in bed sleeping because it's 5 in the morning. I wake up for no apparent reason and then...I discover the cause of the disturbance from my peaceful rest. There are two raccoons fighting on the lawn outside my window. One is making pathetic noises like it's being attacked and the other is barking like it's some kind of genetically altered dog. Not the most enjoyable experience when you still have a good solid three hours left of sleep. Then tonight to add to my annoyance with these odious creatures, I'm restfully enjoying a little bit of bonding with the fabulous invention fondly referred to as T.V. when one starts rustling in the flowerbed right below my window. Naturally I have suppressed the disturbance in my sleep and I am scared shitless by this noise. I jump to the conclusion that there's someone out there and I don't want to deal with any crap if I can at all help it, but low and behold it's another freaking raccoon just there scrounging for dinner. Needless to say I was not a happy person as it all came flooding back to me. Let me just say that next time I'm walking late at night and the raccoons decide to fight for their territory I might just be of the mind to give them a swift kick. I know I would walk away a much happier person.
Beyond the "raccoon situation" things are going surprisingly well and that is all I have to report.

Here it is junior year...half way through...strange

Anyway I'm starting to get ready to move back up to SB and it's getting suprisingly easy.

Anywho must get back to cleaning my room and preparing

The Beach by myself walking and music is my sactuary.

I just don't know why I keep ending up there...I go to do something and then I find myself on the beach walking by myself with my iPod for company. It's really very odd. I can just imagine what people think when there is this girl randomly walking along by herself not doing anything but walking.

It seems like I go into this coma and then I wake up with the sand between by toes and the ocean's rushing coming in over the sounds of my melancholy music. I am offically weird.

It's sunny and apparently that makes the endorphins in my body go crazy!!

Let's go out and play cuz the sun is shining and that makes me so happy!!

I wish I could do a cart wheel at the moment cuz that would be wicked awesome!!

I'm going to be in my car on my way home in less then 24 hours. Who is excited about this? I AM!! The other very happy thing is that it snowed yesterday at home so the mountains are going to be white to boot!! That makes me sooooo excited. It's gonna look like there's sugar everywhere. YAY!!! I can't wait it's so much fun when there's snow to be seen and good food to be eaten. I think it's time to get back to my paper. Bye bye all! Have a wonderful Thanksgiving!

So today was one of those days that you wished never happened.

The biggest problem of the day was that I ended up in the ER. This was because I passed out in the middle of class and people thought I had a seizure.
This trip included but was not limited to:
1. an ambulance ride with CUTE paramedics
2. having an IV started in the vein that runs along the top of my bicep
3. sitting/lying in an ER for 4 hours
4. an EKG
5. a cat scan
6. three viles of blood being drawn
7. get asked repeatedly if I was pregnant
8. not being allowed to drive for a week
9. having to hear a man with shingles be diagnosed next to me
10. missing my religious studies midterm
11. being the cause of English 116A ending 20 minutes early
12. last but not least calling and asking people for favors (I hate doing that)
13. seeing a syringe full of yellow puss that was drawn out of some guy's knee
14. nurse that didn't speak English
15. being given no conclusive answers
16. not being allowed to use my cell phone until I was discharged

So I just want to go to bed and watch a movie and forget about everything

Hope your day was better than mine,
Kerry

Holy Crap midterms are here waaaay too fast. I have so much to get done and all I seem to do is screw around or go out with people or do anything other than what I should be doing. SHIT!!!! It's all piling up what am I going to do? I guess just deal. Crap I'm tired of dealing. I want to just be done with midterms.

I love hall council. I love being busy. I love being me and happy and busy and just generally enjoying life. I love that I have achieved this feeling on my own. It's so amazing to be fulfilled with life and all it's happens. Got to go now reading to get done and plenty to deal with the whole busy thing. Talk to everyone later!

I lost...whatever whatareyagonnado? That's the way life goes...I'll be part of hall council and be perfectly happy there.

My day greatly improved however when Jusitn came over. He made me a little sign/card to make me feel better. Very sweet and typical Jusitn awkwardness but still very sweet. It's going on my wall.

Not winning allows me to go home next weekend which makes me an incredibly happy child. Home cooking and free laundry...it doesn't get much better than that. Oh yeah...I get to see my parents too.

Ok so I have apaper due tommorrow--it's only two pages and I'm at the conclusion of it and I jsut cannot write it it's just impossible to me.

My mind keeps wandering to being President (I find out tommorrow). I don't know maybe I can't write it becase I have other things on my mind. God I want to go back to being 5 and playin g with blocks and not knowing that there's anyhting else out there to do because the blocks are so f-ing fabulous.

I'm writing on the Bible and though it's a very interesting class writing about the Bible is not the most exciting thing to ever happen in my life.

I also am distracted by all the new music I got form Caitlin I have tons and tons now and I can put on something to suit any mood (believe me ANY mood). See more mind wandering. I just can't make myself focus any more the attention span is gone.

I think I'm done and I'll try to finish my paper now.

<3 Kerry

To run for President or not!! I'm so confused I want to but I'm scared I don't know if it's worth it. MUCH LESS free time but maybe that's not such a bad thing. I don't know anymore if I should or I shouldn't I'm so lost (that's nothing new). I should just bite the bullet and do it but it's intimidating. Do I even know enough people to win? I know people who know people but will that really help? God I hate being insecure and whiny. Congratulations if you have read all this you have tons of patience.

On another note...I saw Wendy today. Not something I need to have happen. I don't know I felt really sad about and I didn't know why. That kinda made me confused. She was kinda cold and weird too so I thik the feeling is mutual. I just don't get it sometimes... I mean I don't really get the way life works anymore. I think I'll stop depressing everyone now.

I think I might just have OCD. Perhaps I should get it checked into. I don't know. Anyway just thought I'd share. Just wasted I don't know about 30 minutes of my life filling out an application for a job I'm not gonna get but whatever.

Had a lovely day with Kathleen today. Downtown Santa Barbara was a beautiful as ever. CPK although they completely screwed up gave us free dessert (wooot)!!!

So after my nice relaxing afternoon of Kathleen and Kerry time, I decided to watch Don Juan Demarco. I figured I was in for a nice lonely night of sad lonely girl time. However the powers that be changed all that. He showed up. In quite a freakish manner too. Right as I finished Don Juan Demarco and open my door to go to the bathroom, He walks into my suite. He's looking for tea and a hot water heater which I well know he could get form someone else. So whatever that's about.

I decide that I absolutely must go to the bathroom so I go. My suitemate and friend Caitlin walks in and we had planned to watch a movie. So she sees that He is here and comes in and we talk. Caitlin the lovely girl she is starts joking around (as per usual and that's part of why she is so well loved) and gets Him to admit that he came over partly to see me. Someone please explain this very strange behavior. So to conclude this story we end up watching the Punishier in my room (just Him and me). He won't sit on my bed (appearently way too scary), but come by just to get tea to see him. The excuse for getting tea is that He thinks He's getting sick (cough, cough). Anyway good night all. That is the latest update of the drama that is Him and me.

I DON'T GET IT AT ALL!!!!! He is so hard to read. I think he's into me but then again he tells me about girls who have crushes on him and asks me how to best approach girls. Well how the hell am I supposed to know. Then he does anything I want to do and walks me to my door. SOMEBODY explain it to me it's too much for my feeble little brain. I don't know how else to show him I'm interested GOD WHAT DO I HAVE TO DO? Throw myself at him like a cheap slut? That's not my style I can make more CD's and leave them in a more visible location I guess. Someone please give me advice I think I might blow up with all this waiting and guessing. Please help me figure it out. I think he kinda dropped a hint tonight with all girls do is ask for hall council favors (he's helping me make posters) and I responded that maybe girls ask for hall council favors because they like hanging out with him. I DON'T GET IT. HE LEFT THE FREAKIN DANCE FOR ME TO WATCH BIG FISH A MOVIE HE'S SEEN LIKE 8 TIMES!!!!!!!!!! If he really wants to hit on other girls that isn't the way to do it. When he asked how to hit on girls I said I probably shouldn't be around and he's all no I need someone to make it look like I'm not a loner and I don't really hang out with guys. Well thanks so much. I AM SO FRUSTRATED I COULD SCREAM!!!!!!! I'm making every excuse I can to hang out with him and he's not getting it how thick headed is he? I want him to figure it out. I think he's getting the picture but GOD ONLY KNOWS I CERTAINLY DON'T!!!!!!!!! I want to know for sure and stop all this friends but kinda maybe more crap!!!! SHIT!!!